Why the hell should I?

As a Muslim I am supposed to believe that all people who aren’t Muslims will go to hell, hell.. even most who are Muslims will go to hell.

This poses a personal as well as a social dilemma for me.

Personally I don’t believe that I should go to hell. I’m not a bad person, I don’t kick puppies and kittens, I try and control that urge. I try and respect as many people as my racist and sexist upbringing will allow.

But I don’t pray regularly, I don’t think about God as nearly as much as I should, I don’t heed the Hadith (or even take them very seriously), and I rarely read the Quran. All of these are minimum criteria, as I’m told, to enter Heaven. Since we don’t believe in a Purgatory, that means it’s the Hellfire for me.

I know a lot of good non-muslims, even some of the gays. I don’t believe that they should really go to Hell either. I understand all the arguments for why they shouldn’t go to Hell just because they aren’t Muslims, and I also understand the Islamic argument for why they are going to Hell. And therein lies the dilemma, how do I consolidate the two conflicting views in my head?

Unfortunately this dilemma leads me to just ignore and avoid the topic of the afterlife all-together. This is unfortunate because one of the key principals in my faith is keeping in mind the afterlife and how this life is transient and quick. So due to this problem, I have been slowly training myself away from Islam.

If I were to try to go back into the fold of my faith, I’d have to confront this dilemma and resolve it in some way. It’s unavoidable, my mind will bring up questions that I won’t be able to answer. I will be tormented with emotions that I won’t know how to deal with, and I’ll have to judge and ostracize others that I would rather think well of and keep in my life.

So what should I do? I don’t have any answers at the moment. Maybe later the fear of Hell will eventually overcome the dilemma and I’ll push non-Muslims (Kafirs) out of my life and begin to pray and do all the other stuff.

But really? Is that what it means to be a Muslim?


7 thoughts on “Why the hell should I?

  1. i get the inner conflict youre facing. kinda
    i’m a good catholic girl who believes in reincarnation and hasn’t taken communion in more than 15 years. far as i’m concerned, the important thing is to BELIEVE. further if you didn’t question certain aspects of your religion and followed it blindly, you’d be a scary person indeed.

    • Yes.. but in a weird way.. I’m forced to blindly not follow certain aspects of my religion because it contradicts certain things such as what it means to be a good person.. So both paths require some type of blindness.. some sort of *close my eyes and pretend it’s not happening* which is, I believe, the ultimate seed of sin.

    • coco, your situation is somewhat different i think. The catholic church teaches that one gets into heaven by performing good deeds and more or less being a good person. that means that in the official teachings of the catholic church nonchristians can go to heaven (this is in stark contrast to the protestant belief that all christians and only christians go to heaven)

  2. well deserved parasite at your service

    it’s just a story you created in your head. the story of what it means to be a good person– including where it will lead you.

  3. The best way to honour god/the universe/life is to love every creation that is manifest into being.

    Don’t worry then, you are just fine.

    Life and the continuation of life.

  4. Ultimately it is not our place to judge where a soul is sent after death. That is Allah’s decision. Part of being Muslim is understanding that Allah is Master of the Day of Judgement, which takes a great load off our shoulders! Throughout the Qur’an is the phrase “Allah knows best” which is a reminder that we cannot know absolutely the judgement that will be passed upon us.

    • But is it not an integral part of most religions to believe that the other religion is wrong and that they’re going to hell if they don’t switch their daily prayer plans over to Islam Inc?
      I think what I’m trying to say, in a very sarcastic way, is that maybe it SHOULDN’T be a part of religion to think that others will go to hell if they don’t convert. And it sounds like you’re saying the same thing.. but that’s now what we’re preached.

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